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I don’t know where to begin or whether there is anything to say anymore.
I’ve been asking too many questions in the past few weeks.
Are they questions that will build me or build others up? Or are they destructive questions that will only put me in a state of despair?
As I learn and mature every day, I come to realize just how ugly our society is becoming. It upsets me. Perhaps it even disgusts me.
It’s like watching the world we live in fall into traps of sin and feeling like there isn’t much I can do about it. The more questions I ask about why our world is like this, why our society has become that way, why have the people in my life changed this way, and why do I keep doing this, has pushed me into a dark, dark corner.
I know that He is using these questions to shape the way I see my own life and the way I see the world He created.
It’s true, I always have these cycles of frustration, exhaustion, confusion, reflection, and then rest in Him. I guess it makes it difficult for the people around me to understand me or be able to relate with what goes on in my head.
I think a lot. I can’t help but dream about everything. I can’t control my urge to analyze everything. But I will try.
Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from him. [Psalm 62:5]
